"strange, isn't it, that when the world turns upsidedown sometimes we don't turn with it. sometimes gravity has nothing to do with it and those stars above aren't our limit before we have to drop back down to earth. sometimes pain means peace and blood heals wounds. sometimes tears mean joy. strange, isn't it, that sometimes a smile means hate and sometimes "i love you" means you're just a body without the 'some'. sometimes perfection really means broken and sometimes hello means good-bye. stange, isn't it, that when they put that Man on the cross they thought they were killing Him; but sometimes death means really living."

(lysha)

i wondered what she was thinking. sitting there all alone on her little red bench, listening to the noise all around her. staring out the open window. i wondered what she had gone through to make her have that sad look in her eyes. i think sometimes wondering gets me in trouble. or maube not. i wondered what he thought as he stared at her. not that it's any of my business, i'm just interested thats all. i wonder why the person with that yellow coat was walking so hunched over, why they were so sad. something in me wanted to get out and run to them and ask them. but this time it was because i really wanted to know what was wrong. it makes me sad to see them like that, it somehow makes me sad to think of what they've probably been through. wonder wonder wonder.

its sad actually. really sad. you probably have no idea just how sad this all is.

somehow i knew you were lying when you said the thought had never even crossed your mind. and that you would never break that promise. i couldn't even see your face but somehow i knew.

shalalalaa.

you miss me yet you don't know me. you say you'll always be there but you won't be. and it's not necessarily even your fault its just how things go.

i find myself sitting here, completely awake, but i feel really tired.

"she's so hot"

sure, but she's such a faker. i don't really think you even have any idea.

she's insecure and confused and broken.

maybe even angry.

she's cold and she's hurt.

will you run with me?

just to let you know, nothing has changed since everything changed.

something tells me i'll never be closer to another like you.