"i have trained you well, you make me proud."

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so i'm posting and i'm sorta /hot/ cause it's really warm outside. but my parents just put on the air conditioning... hurray. it's been such nice weather though, really hot... but i like it. i think later on i will go outside and do more work there, may as well tan while i'm working.

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"are you ok?"

"yea, just some stuff going on"

"what kinda stuff?"

"***********************************************************************"

"are you serious"

"yea"

"that makes me so mad"

"i know it really hurt"

"i'm praying for you, i hope things get better. i just wish i could give you a hug"

"thanks"

"i love you"

"thanks"

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Maybe I’ve been the problem

Maybe I’m the one to blame

But even when I turn it off and blame myself

The outcome feels the same

I’ve been thinking maybe I’ve been partly cloudy

Maybe I’m the chance of rain

And maybe I’m overcast

And maybe all my luck’s washed down the drain

I’ve been thinking about everyone, everyone

You look so lonely

But when I look at the stars, when I look at the stars

When I look at the stars, I see someone else

When I look at the stars, the stars

I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet, watching entropy and pain

And maybe start to wonder

How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking about the meaning of resistance

Of a hope beyond my own

And suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone, everyone you look so empty

("Stars", Switchfoot)

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