Tuesday, May 16, 2006

this is true love

"By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us."
-1 John 3:16

you know what really hit me the other day?
God always welcomes and rejoices over everyone who comes to Him, even though He never lost them.
pretty amazing if you ask me.
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sometimes i wonder why i can't just let it all go. give it up to Jesus. i know so many people talk about that and say "i just wish i could let this go, i need to give it up to God" and so when i say that i feel shallow and just... i dunno. but really... all God has ever asked me to do was to deny my own wants and accept His, and follow Him. so why must it be so hard? our hearts can never find any peace until they rest in God. He is the most hidden among us yet the most present, the most beautiful and yet the most strong, ever enduring and yet we cannot even begin to comprehend Him.
i realized the other day that there's a world of difference between the joy of hope that comes from faith and the shallow happiness that so many people look for today. i always knew that in my head... but i just really needed to be reminded of that. God is all i'll ever need. so how come i keep thinking that if i give up on this chance i'm never going to get another one?

He wants us as His own even though He doesn't need us.
And this all seems like something we've all heard before... but to tell you the truth it amazes me more and more every day and i can't get over God, and His love, and how great it is, and how i could never live without it.

*You rescued my heart, Jesus You rescued my life. Let me praise You in my heart, let me praise You with my tongue. Let this be the cry of my whole being: Lord there is none like You. Whisper in my heart again and again that You're here to save me, that You'll never let me go. 'Cause I doubt. "i will trust You, Jesus, i'll be brave." You outhsine all light yet are hidden deeper than any secret in my heart.
So i'll say it again... so that i love You, say that i need You, say that i can't live without You.
Here I am, as gold to the fire I will surrender to Your hand. to this place, Lord I have come ready for Your touch. It's all for You, it's all for You, i'm letting go...