Monday, May 08, 2006

of... of things

Though everything's the same
Inside there's something real
A faith which causes me to change
(But what's different now)
A spark is gleaming in my eye
Like diamond stars that fill the sky
I think a smile says it all
A smile says it all
-Kutless

it really does. and the way you're smiling isn't very convincing to me that everything's all right... even though you act like it is. i'm so amazed at how you can put up such a good "i'm alright, everything's ok, i don't care" front. to tell you the truth you're really quite talented at it. but you can't fool me. let it go, leave all this behind and stop letting people break your heart, you can change this.

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I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
Don't you know
There's more to this than we thought
'cause we were never listening
We heard it all before but we missed it
Lets go...
Back to the days when we were young and not restless
We still believed and hadn't built our defenses

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my weekend didn't really go as planned... oh well. things happen, plans you've looked forward to get ruined, and life goes on. i... guess. ballet exam is over, and i'm just glad it's done. everyone in my whole class slacked off this year, we worked a lot harder for our other exam. which is ok... you can't do everything perfectly :P then friday night i went to a movie with... wow a lot of people, and we watched Mission Impossible 3 :D it was good... i liked it. it would have been a lot scarier if dear meg beside me would stop making jokes.

(movie) "time to blow up the car" "do i have to? it's so beautiful..." "blow it up"
(meg) "hmm it's interesting that they have that car in the movie... funny thing is i have the exact same one as him, except it's in... yellow."
(janelle) "oh really? thats interesting, i happen to have one in my garage, it's actually red. way better than yours"

all of that while they're killing people and having a huge fight. wow meg makes me laaaaugh :D i guess you had to be there... :P

this week promising to be pretty much boring... study study study and more study for music history exam this friday, and then i have a 24 hour famine to raise money for kids in Guatamela (sp?) from Friday to Saturday. i hope i don't faint in orchestra lol.

well i must go. goodbye!