Dear (...)
hey it's me. hows your life going? i hope you're doing better than you were before... yno what? things are better for me too, although i'm still really busy and stressed out about a lot of things. my ballet exam is this thursday, and i'm really nervous about it. i'll be doing it with people i don't even know and it's kinda freaky, if you know what i mean. well i guess you wouldn't... i wonder if you even know i have my ballet exam soon. two exams to be exact. i just wanted to let you know that i'm glad things are back to normal. i'm glad that you've been talking to me like normal lately and that everything seems to be... working out. i'm glad you're letting me see the real you, instead of putting all your defensiveness or "evasiveness" up. (as you would like to call it) i'm glad you're starting to realize what all happened a couple months ago, although you haven't told me you've started to realize it. but i can tell by the way you talk to me. i'm not quite sure if you know (yet) that you know things about me that i haven't told anyone else. cause if you did... you went have gone and done the things you did and made my heart cry. those weeks... i cried a lot. about you, about how things were going between us and just because you were acting like the hugest jerk ever. meh half the time you're a jerk but i love you for it. and i love you the way you are and you know that. so even though you're a jerk don't go and try to change for me ok? never change for me. sure there's things in all of our lives that we could change, fix up. so change for God, change because He wants you to be like Him more and more every day. ok? there's so many things about you that make me laugh, make me smile. did you know that? the stupidest little things... no one else will laugh at cause i'm the only one who gets it. and you do it on purpose cause you know i'm the only one who gets that little inside joke, and i'll start laughing hysterically and you'll act like you think i'm weird. ha i love it when you do that. and the way you'll make the funniest jokes, and the way you tilt your head when you're thinking, and you get that quizzical look on your face. but most importantly i love how you strive to live like God and to follow Him every single day. you don't always talk about it but i know you're doing just that. and i know you slip and fall, and so do i. so do we all. so i'm glad things are getting better, cause when things were tense between it, to put it straight it sucked a lot. i missed you then. you've broken my heart so many times, and some of them i look back on now and i think, why did i make such a big deal of that, why did we both. but yno what those were things were went through and had to go through, and it made us into who we are now. i'm glad you were apart of all the good things and the bad things, and looking back on it now i realize i wouldn't change a thing. you have taught me SO much and i don't think i'll ever fully realize that. so keep on being the way you are, keep on smiling, making those jokes, are tilting your head just so. but i have to ask you just one small favour. as we keep on growing, be careful with my heart, ok?
love,
Janelle
hey it's me. hows your life going? i hope you're doing better than you were before... yno what? things are better for me too, although i'm still really busy and stressed out about a lot of things. my ballet exam is this thursday, and i'm really nervous about it. i'll be doing it with people i don't even know and it's kinda freaky, if you know what i mean. well i guess you wouldn't... i wonder if you even know i have my ballet exam soon. two exams to be exact. i just wanted to let you know that i'm glad things are back to normal. i'm glad that you've been talking to me like normal lately and that everything seems to be... working out. i'm glad you're letting me see the real you, instead of putting all your defensiveness or "evasiveness" up. (as you would like to call it) i'm glad you're starting to realize what all happened a couple months ago, although you haven't told me you've started to realize it. but i can tell by the way you talk to me. i'm not quite sure if you know (yet) that you know things about me that i haven't told anyone else. cause if you did... you went have gone and done the things you did and made my heart cry. those weeks... i cried a lot. about you, about how things were going between us and just because you were acting like the hugest jerk ever. meh half the time you're a jerk but i love you for it. and i love you the way you are and you know that. so even though you're a jerk don't go and try to change for me ok? never change for me. sure there's things in all of our lives that we could change, fix up. so change for God, change because He wants you to be like Him more and more every day. ok? there's so many things about you that make me laugh, make me smile. did you know that? the stupidest little things... no one else will laugh at cause i'm the only one who gets it. and you do it on purpose cause you know i'm the only one who gets that little inside joke, and i'll start laughing hysterically and you'll act like you think i'm weird. ha i love it when you do that. and the way you'll make the funniest jokes, and the way you tilt your head when you're thinking, and you get that quizzical look on your face. but most importantly i love how you strive to live like God and to follow Him every single day. you don't always talk about it but i know you're doing just that. and i know you slip and fall, and so do i. so do we all. so i'm glad things are getting better, cause when things were tense between it, to put it straight it sucked a lot. i missed you then. you've broken my heart so many times, and some of them i look back on now and i think, why did i make such a big deal of that, why did we both. but yno what those were things were went through and had to go through, and it made us into who we are now. i'm glad you were apart of all the good things and the bad things, and looking back on it now i realize i wouldn't change a thing. you have taught me SO much and i don't think i'll ever fully realize that. so keep on being the way you are, keep on smiling, making those jokes, are tilting your head just so. but i have to ask you just one small favour. as we keep on growing, be careful with my heart, ok?
love,
Janelle
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