"now wouldn't that be sweet"

yay look at her green walls! awesomest room ever.
so we had the funnest times of our lives... and we had christmas after christmas. how cool is that? pretty awesome. and we went to the mall for like... eight hours ha it was sooo funny. and we watched catch and release, cutest movie ever! and we got manicures, so now we have bright pink nails. and tineke made cookie dough and we froze it and then at night we put blankets on her snow-covered roof and sat on it eating cookie dough. while listening to our coldplay song and with her christmas lights on. it was the funnest night of my life, i miss it. ha... AWKWARD!! oh man. mustard... ketchup... i love her.

for ari.

''You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.''

i-c-i-c-l-e-s

i remember you like yesterday, yesterday...
i still can't believe you're gone

sigh. i would give anything to be with these people right now

"once upon a time there was a magical fairy princess named janelle (she starred as barbie in fairytopia, sweeett!) she was walking on a rainbow, enjoying watching the munchkins try and count the color particles, when a distressed girl came alone. 'what is wrong my dear,' janelle asked the stressed girl. the girl responded, 'i want to be a fairy like everyone esle, but my daddy cant afford me wings!' so the princess bought her wings out of sympathy, and they lived happily ever after and were bestfriends till the end. amen. the end.
p.s. girl=ariana spunt. thank you for buying me wings so i could fly"
-miss ariana spunt
"and we'll be best friends forever"

94 things i would like to do.

1. live in England for a year
2. travel the world
3. volunteer
4. overcome a fear
5. kiss someone in the rain
6. grow a garden
7. wear a ball gown
8. live in New York
9. own a coffee shop
10. have a star wars movie marathon with people who care about me (and star wars!)
11. go on a mission trip
12. have a huge food fight
13. slow dance by candlelight
14. see Coldplay liveee
15. have a song/poem written for/about me
16. eat spaghetti like lady and the tramp!
17. practice a random act of kindness
18. buy a pair of yellow ballet flats
19. knit a pair of mittens and a scarf
20. play piano for someone famous
21. sing in a huge concert
22. play my cello in a forest
23. fly
24. gondola through Venice
25. have my portrait painted
26. cry on a train, and then write about it
27. learn how to take a compliment
28. run away
29. go back
30. send a message in a bottle
31. plant random trees in random places
32. solve a mystery
33. read Jane Austen while drifting in a canoe
34. be someone's hero
35. be someone's mentor
36. be someone's role model
37. accept myself for who i am
38. star-spin by myself
39. learn how to snowboard and not be afraid!
40. get kissed under the mistletoe or on a ferris wheel
41. learn to truly forgive
42. have an intelligent conversation with a 4 year old
43. have two girls and name them Ashlyn and Joy
44. be in two places at once
45. wish upon a star and actually have that wish come true
46. have a shower in a waterfall
47. drink tea on a mountain
48. get married
49. buy a cottage
50. have an indoor cat and name her Mischa
51. be really flexible
52. learn how to breakdance!
53. live on an island
54. have a note fall out of a book just for me
55. own a house with a grand piano right infront of a window
56. sew something that i'd actually wear
57. paint a picture that doesn't look retarded
58. read the whole entire Bible
59. run barefoot in a field
60. fall in love
61. paint a room white and then write random stuff on the walls and have other people write stuff on it
62. have a boy call me "darling" and mean it
63. get married in a castle
64. live in California
65. visit every single province
66. buy out AE
67. have a gazebo
68. jump into a huge mud puddle... and i mean huge
69. learn to cook
70. live with no regrets
71. study abroad
72. see the Northern Lights
73. not get behind in school for a year
74. get over myself
75. get a masters degree in music
76. make amends
77. visit Alaska
78. play hide and go seek in a forest
79. get my own digital camera
80. get an ipod
81. do something great for God
82. have a house with pretty gardens, a lake surrounded by willow trees in front of it, and a canoe in the lake, and a curved driveway all the way around the lake
83. drink shirley temples all day long
84. write a song
85. see switchfoot live
86. go to the National Ballet
87. go to Julliard
88. play piano for a ballet class
89. go dancing on the town
90. eat healthier
91. ride a horse on the beach
92. have someone help me with one of these things
93. go to Africa
94. be a clown

I want to do a picture like that^ sometime, with someone, that would be really cool.

Christmas holidays are pretty much done O_O how much sadder can you get, guh. but Christmas holidays always happen like this, every year, you're like yay I have two full weeks of holidays! and then they're gone before you know it. hm.

I thought I had more to say. But I guess I don't. Maybe I'll post again later?

happy new year!!

//philippians 3//