Psalm 91

"He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”
Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler
And from the perilous pestilence.
He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.
Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
“Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”
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"Welcome to the teenage years dearest! I can guarantee they'll put you on some sort of emotional rollercoaster, but if you keep on letting Him be first in your life it will eliminate some of those tears. Only His opinion truly matters. Thankfully, He sees our true self. Keep it real, always strive to be yourself, but most of all strive to be like the Lord! There will be times when you will be trying to figure our exactly just who you are. On those times, cling to Christ. He will pull you through doubts, hesitation, hurts, fears, and all those thing that act as stumbling stones."

One of my friends wrote that to me...in a birthday letter. Yno whats encouraging...having people there to talk to when you're going through tough stuff. And to know that you can trust what they say. But most of all...being able to go to God.

Why, why are You still with me?
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truthI don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
So I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

Porcelain Heart

BarlowGirl

Broken heart
One more time
Pick yourself up
Why even cry
Broken pieces in your hands
Wonder how you'll make it whole

(Chorus:)
You know
You pray
This can't be the way
You cry
You say
Something's gotta change
And mend this porcelain heart of mine
Of mine...

Someone said
A broken heart would sting at first then make you stronger
You wonder why this pain remains
Were hearts made whole just to break

Creator only you take brokeness
And create it into beauty once again

You know
You pray
This can't be the way
You cry
You say
Something's gotta change

You know
You pray
This can't be the way
You cry
You say
Something's gotta change
And mend this porcelain heart

Please mend this porcelain heart
Of mine, of mine
Creator mend this heart

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I could try to explain things rights now....but i don't think I will. I don't have the words. And I don't know if i want to explain any of it. But I know God's going to heal this...make it better. I have to keep reminding myself that God is enough for me. He's all I need...and even though I might think that I need other things...other people...i know that He's everything. He's everything i will ever need. And I take comfort in that.

I'm really enjoying these Christmas holidays...i never want school to come back! hehe especially math :P

I should go...clean some more house...do piano and cello...and math. ugh. but hopefully it won't take me alll day. but...i hope you guys are enjoying your holidays!

when it was over

When it was over and they could talk about it She said there's just one thing I have got to know What in that moment when you were running so hard and fast Made you stop and turn for home He said I always knew you loved me even though I'd broken your heart I always knew there'd be a place for me to make a brand new start
Oh love wash over a multitude of things Love wash over a multitude of things Love wash over a multitude of things Make us whole
When it was over and they could talk about it They were sitting on the couch She said what on earth made you stay here When you finally figured out what I was all about He said I always knew you'd do the right thing Even though it might take some time She said, Yeah, I felt that and that's probably what saved my life
Oh love wash over a multitude of things Love wash over a multitude of things Love wash over a multitude of things Make us whole
There is a love that never fails There is a healing that always prevails There is a hope that whispers a vow A promise to stay while we're working it out So come with your love and wash over us

-Sara Groves

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I think that's probably one of my favourite songs right now. It's on my new Sara Groves cd called "Add to the Beauty" which I got for Christmas :D i love that cd sooo much.

OH!!! exciting exciting news. The Cottars are on a tour with The Chieftains...they just announced it :D it's sooooo awesome. and a friend of mine said that he might be going to Chicago to see them...and then maybe i could go along which would be totally amazing...seeing the cottars again live. AND their new cd is coming out January 10th!!! woooo

ok...what else...tonight we're (my family and I) are opening presents :D yes it is a couple of days late...but we didn't have any time on the weekend cause we have other family over the whole time. so i'm excited about tonight...

I think that's all for now...cheers!!!

- I Celebrate the Day -

Relient K

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years

To what this midnight made so clear

That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that

This baby would one day save me

In the hope that what You did

That you were born so I might live

To look back and think that

This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day

That You were born to die

So I could one day pray for You to save my life

So I was going to post these lyrics before Christmas, cause they are kind of Christmas lyrics. But I never got the time to sadly. It's been sooo busy already. Saturday Eowyn and her family came over, and we had Christmas with them. On the Sunday we hung out with her family again...went to church. Monday we had my Dad's side of the family...christmas...which was fun too. Today I went shopping with chels...it was so busy in the malls! craaaazy busy. There were actually a lot of good sales though...herm. i love sales. except that it makes me want to buy everything...which i cannot do :P

tralala. hmm tralala is such a joyful word to say.

We have friends from Virginia over right now :D It's happy...they have younger kids...one of them is my sister's best friend actually. I think all the parents are going out for supper tonight. I wanted to go to a movie...but I dunno if chels can come with me. We wanted to see Pride and Prejudice, but it's not in any theatre near here. Which is very sad cause every person I've talked to, that has seen it, said it was amaaaazing. gwah i want to watch it so badly.

ok. I probably need to go. but...I hope you guys all had an awesome Christmas...and a Happy New Year!!! <33

Here I Go Again

Casting Crowns

Father, hear my prayer

I need the perfect words

Words that he will hear

And know they're straight from You

I don't know what to say

I only know it hurts

To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time I'll speak the words of life

With Your fire in my eyes

But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words

What am I so afraid of?

'Cause here I go again

Talkin 'bout the rain

And mulling over things that won't live past today

And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love HimBut here I go again, here I go again

Lord, You love him so,

You gave Your only Son

If he will just believe; he will never die

But how then will he know what he has never heard

Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

This might be my last chance to tell him

That You love him

You love him, You love him

What Am I so afraid

What am I so afraid

What am I so afraid of?

How then will he know

What he has never heard

Messiah Action

There's some pictures from the Messiah...wow good times. The whole experience was sooo amazing. Singing the Messiah in front of everyone and just being a part of that was indescribable. And then of course there was the party afterwards...where i saw everyone that i hadn't seen in so long. I hadn't realized just how much I missed everyone till I saw them...gah i miss them now already! I can't describe everything...it was all just so much fun ... so I will just stop there and say that it was all amazing. :D

I should go do more work...I have sooo much English and piano to do yet...but to all of you who came to the Messiah...thanks SO much it was awesome. I love u all!!!!

Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff.You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas.However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

hehe well i don't actually get annoyed if people leave thoughtless comments on my blog but hey. it was an amusing quiz to take... also if you haven't read the post below please do. cause nooone commented :D so...christmas is coming!!!! :D:D i'm so excited for christmas this year...usually i'm not overly excited for it. but this i'm year i'm so happy that it's coming and i can't wait. oh oh oh! this year too...i'm getting two scarfs that people are making for me. it's awesome...i love scarfs!!! my Oma is making me one for christmas...it's really fuzzy material and it's red-ish pink-ish sorta. then a girl in my ballet class...just came up to me randomly and she was like "my mom is making a whole bunch of my friends scarfs do you want one?" and i was like...uh...sure!!! haha it was so funny. so her mom's making me on that's gonna be this deep brown. ooh it's so happy happy happy. so yea...wow it's snowing so madly outside! the snow keeps falling and falling...i hope it doesn't get too bad though cause then it will be too bad of weather and people won't be able to come to our messiah concert! and that would be horrrrible. but i should go...i have math. math. math. ugh math. i wish it would go awaaaay! but it must be done. pfft. ok goodbye!!!! remember...read the post below :D <33

Hey everyone. so yes I'm going to copy lysha's idea and put things on here that i would like to have...lol what an ingenious idea :D

this is pretty sweet skirt

and this is a pretty sweet shirt

a pretty sweet shirt right here too

and this :D

alsooo....check out this amusing site that i happened to find...haha it made me laugh so hard. and i don't even know why...seriously. anyways...i have nothing else to say. i'm really busy right now with all this english homework that's due and i'm behind in it and aaahhh it's stressful. and then of course getting everything ready for the Messiah this weekend...agh it takes a lot of time!!! but i should go...read more of my english, "The Last Days of Socrates." ugh sometimes it can be the boringest book ever...it was interesting in one part. hehe i shall survive. or try to. goodbye!!! <333

change of name

hey guys...I've decided to change my blogger name to my real name...so basically my name is Janelle, and you guys can call me that from now on :D

yea i have nothing else to say really. I have to go and get ready for church..and i still want to email some people and stuff. so i hope you guys are having an awesome Sunday, and I guess I'll talk to you all later! God Bless!!!

be anxious for nothing

"Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you."
-Philippians 4:4-8

So often I have to remind myself that. Be anxious for nothing. Trust in God. And His peace which surpasses all understanding will guard my heart and mind through Christ Jesus.
I have so much to learn.
There's so much confusion, pain, hurt...but in the end I know that all I need to do is trust God through all of this and He will see me through it. It sounds so simple. Just trust. But it's so hard to do.

Something Changed

by Sara Groves

Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out

Till I had no doubt that something changed

Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart

In the deepest part the healing came

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it

And I can't afford it

But it's mine

Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim

When a wall falls down and the light comes in

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it

And I can't afford it

But it's mine

When I Go Down

Relient K

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope,
And hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart,
And when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you,
Though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic,
But it's a fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

add to the beauty

hello one. and all. I have nothing else to post about so I'm gonna tell you about my day. And the title of this post has nothing to do at all with the post really it's just a name to a song and i like the words. of the name. :D hehe

so today i woke up. rather late i should say, which wasn't good. lately i've been going to bed so lately and then i cannot wake up in the morning. it's horrible. i feel bad cause i know i should be up and doing my schoolwork, and practicing piano...like a good girl should LOL. but so far that has not happened. so THEN i got out of bed and went downstairs and had an egg for breakfast, with toast. then i got to work and did my scienceee...and finished my module. then i did piano practice and memorized Bach. then i did the study guide for the module so i can do the test tomorrow. cause it's due.

hmm i'm eating half melted icecream right now. it wasn't melted before. humph i don't like melted icecream. i like the hard stuff better. it's still good though cause i have chocolate chips all over and in the icecream. mmm i like chocolate chips. i dunno why i'm even eating icecream it's like...10:30! ah well...i craved it.

so then i did more and more science. blah i hate science right now. it takes too long and it's too confusing but it must be done! then i had lunch...my mom made a roast, and i had it on toast!!! wow that rhymed. i didn't even mean it to rhyme. then i taught piano from...lets see 1:00 till 8:15 (and taught some voice) with a couple little breaks. which was...tiring and it felt really long. but it was still fun!!!!

then i stopped teaching. and guess what i did. haha i bet you can't guess. actually...i did more science. hehe see i knew you couldn't guess.

ok i have to go to bed now! but I will blog again soon when i have more time! ok goodbye!

It's Going to Be Alright

by Sara Groves and Gordon Kennedy

It's going to be alright

It's going to be alright

I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep

And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep

Oh, oh I believe, I believe that

It's going to be alright

It's going to be alright

I believe you'll outlive this pain in you heart

And you'll gain such a strength from what is tearing you apart

Oh, oh I believe I believe that

It's going to be alright

It's going to be alright

When some time has past us, and the story if retold

It will mirror the strength and the courage in your soul

Oh, oh, I believe I believe,
I believe

I believe

I did not come here to offer you clichÈ's

I will not pretend to know of all your pain

Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you

It's going to be alright

It's going to be alright

This is for a special person that I though I'd post these lyrics for. You might not even know I'm posting them for you, you might not even read this post. But you know who you are. And I hope you know that I love you and that I'll always be here for you, whenever you need to talk. Keep trusting in God, cause He'll never leave your side, He's always there. much love

LATER

welcome to a new blogger....steph!!! go to her blog at www.firefliesss.blogspot.com :D and show her you love her by giving her a comment ok BYE

must. blog.

I must blog again. Lysha said I desperately need to and I really truly do but the problem is I do not know what to blog about. That always happene hehe.

Well today...today was a busy day indeed. I woke up 6:30 AM (horrorrrrr) because I had my orchestra concert. It went really well...I think lol. Chels came along, and my brother. My parents couldn't come because they are at a gymnastics competition with my little sister! They're not coming home till later tonight. I still have to tidy the whole house, eat supper, and get 30 minutes of music together for a concert thing my family is in next week. I hope it doesn't take too long lol.

The concert Thursday night was awesome! We all went to Kelsey's afterwards...woooo!!! good times.

and...14 days till the messiah concert! :D I'm soooo excited. lol it seems so far away but it's gonna come before i know it...so many people are coming that i haven't seen in forever...lara lysha sandra steph ange meg (and maybe kath jill summer and shimmer...can you guys let me know if you want tickets for sure...cause they're being sold quickly!!!) it should be splendid.

yno what...I think I have to go. cause my brother needs the computer for homework or something. so I will be leaving...right now....yes now.

goodbye!