i don't really have time to post.
nor do i really want to.
what i really want to do... is enjoy this last week of summer. of laying outside, and drinking in the smell of flowers and savoring the feel of the sun warming my skin. of sitting in my favourite chair with my favourite blanket and sipping tea, while i read a book. of loving the feeling of doing absolutely nothing, and just sitting there. of going over to my friend's house in the middle of the day, and having get togethers at night. of sleeping in... yeah i'm gonna miss that. i'm gonna miss you.
cause pretty soon, it's all going to be gone.
and thats going to suck.
but i think... i think this year will be good, if i let it be. "to stop dreading" pfft yeah. it's going to be busy but it's going to be good. since when have i ever gotten away from busy? well since never.
so enjoy it people. cause it's going, going....

GONE.
(Philippians 1:6)

cause really.... this is true, true, absolute love. that Jesus died for us when we hated him. no one could ever love me like You.

camppp

"if you're happy and you know it eat your crusts *woowoo* if you're happy and you know it..."

"i was just gonna tell you something" "yeah i was just gonna tell you something too but i'll tell you later"

you tend to light up my life.

You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me




thank you. for what? oh for inspiring me.
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it's funny how one small, insignificant thing can totally change your whole perspective. it's the simple but beautiful things. it's when someone laughs, when someone cries. it's when someone hurts but heals. it's when someone runs away but then comes back. it's someone finding God. it's you when you smile.

how come? how did we ever end up here?
you know, i fall, but He catches me and brings me back again.
i'm not scared of it all, of you, of showing you, of anything like that (like that remember.) i'm just scared you'll eventually go away.
the sun shone today and i thought of you. yesterday i went to the beach and layed on the sand, and tanned. it was heavenly. i love the beach, i want to buy a house on the beach and live there all the time, and have a deck that looks out onto the sand and the water that never seems to end. and watch the sunsets from a bright red chair.
Her face is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
i'm officially in loveee with that song.
go here and listen to "Suddenly I See"

When something ends
Something begins
But now it's just the end of the road
(It's the End of the Road - Matt Goss)
well thats all.

shadows are really fun to look at.

"you tend to light up my life"

be brave, beautiful girl, pick up your heart from off the floor.

(remember?)

polka dot socks.

three days till they both come home.

tomorrow they all leave. it's funny how when you see someone every day for a week, and then they leave as suddenly as they came... how sad you can get.

"no i'm not desperate, i just miss you."

sigh.

mmmm milk.

mmmm sour cream and onion chips. chips really aren't good for you, i really shouldn't be eating them, but here i sit with the whole bowl in front of me, and i can't seem to stop.

O-O

tralala.

i say that a lot, but really only when i'm happy, it sounds like a really happy word, even when you say it out loud. try it sometime.

oh oh oh these words of my own, from my heart, i love you i love you i love you.

this song is pretty.

it's been a long day.

i can pretend that there was a hidden message.

i can pretend i have you figured out.

i can pretend i never saw that.
i can pretend he never said that.

yeah, it's fun to pretend.

i love people who make me laugh for no apparent reason in the world.

i adore laying on big blankets at night and watching the stars.

i love talking with your bestest friend till 3 in the morning.

i adore dancing when no ones watching.

wow, it's 5:40, i think i need to go.

Talk of the Town - Jack Johnson

I want to be where the talk of the town

Is about last night when the sun went down

And the trees all dance

And the warm wind blows in that same old sound

And the water below gives a gift to the sky

And the clouds give back every time they cry

And make the grass grow green beneath my toes

And if the sun comes out

I'll paint a picture all about

The colors I've been dreaming of

The hours just don't seem enough

To put it all together

Maybe it's as strange as it seems

And the trouble I find is that the trouble finds me

It's a part of my mind it begins with a dream

And a feeling I get when I look and I see

That this world is a puzzle, I'll find all of the pieces

And put it all together, and then I'll rearrange it

I'll follow it forever

Always be as strange as it seems

Nobody ever told me not to try

And the water below gives a gift to the sky

And the clouds give back every time they cry

And make the grass grow green beneath my toes

And if the sun comes out

I'm going to paint a picture all about

The colors I've been dreaming of

The hours just don't seem enough

To put it all together

Always be as strange as it seems

"strange, isn't it, that when the world turns upsidedown sometimes we don't turn with it. sometimes gravity has nothing to do with it and those stars above aren't our limit before we have to drop back down to earth. sometimes pain means peace and blood heals wounds. sometimes tears mean joy. strange, isn't it, that sometimes a smile means hate and sometimes "i love you" means you're just a body without the 'some'. sometimes perfection really means broken and sometimes hello means good-bye. stange, isn't it, that when they put that Man on the cross they thought they were killing Him; but sometimes death means really living."

(lysha)

i wondered what she was thinking. sitting there all alone on her little red bench, listening to the noise all around her. staring out the open window. i wondered what she had gone through to make her have that sad look in her eyes. i think sometimes wondering gets me in trouble. or maube not. i wondered what he thought as he stared at her. not that it's any of my business, i'm just interested thats all. i wonder why the person with that yellow coat was walking so hunched over, why they were so sad. something in me wanted to get out and run to them and ask them. but this time it was because i really wanted to know what was wrong. it makes me sad to see them like that, it somehow makes me sad to think of what they've probably been through. wonder wonder wonder.

its sad actually. really sad. you probably have no idea just how sad this all is.

somehow i knew you were lying when you said the thought had never even crossed your mind. and that you would never break that promise. i couldn't even see your face but somehow i knew.

shalalalaa.

you miss me yet you don't know me. you say you'll always be there but you won't be. and it's not necessarily even your fault its just how things go.

i find myself sitting here, completely awake, but i feel really tired.

"she's so hot"

sure, but she's such a faker. i don't really think you even have any idea.

she's insecure and confused and broken.

maybe even angry.

she's cold and she's hurt.

will you run with me?

just to let you know, nothing has changed since everything changed.

something tells me i'll never be closer to another like you.

i feel like making a list.

-she's gone
-i'm really tired and today was sorta boring
-so you think you can dance is on tonight
-if you're reading this i probably miss you
-my feet = cold
-i have blue pants on
-i want some tea
-i just ate a fuzzy peach
-my cd is taking a really long time to burn
-"lets rearrange, i wish you were a stranger i could disengage, just say that we agree and then never change." tralala
-"i'll be the father of your child"
-Psalm 73
-this is kinda pointless... but i'm so bored...
-gaBANG!!
-pointe shoes hurt
-i have a pretty purple bodysuit that i have to wear for my ballet teacher's wedding, and a white skirt! its pretty awesome
-i want to see Step Up
-next week next week
-the end.

well that was senseless.

everything is beautiful

tineke has been over all week... it has been amazing. lets see, what did we do... well sunday we sorta like picked her up and all that, and Monday morning, we went on a bike ride which resulted in me pretty much passing out from the heat cause we didn't have water, and we had a strange ride home. and we went to chels' at night and watched She's the Man and random things. and Tuesday... we like swam and did random things once again and then at night we went shopping, and i got this shirt, and tineke got this and it's beautiful and i love it.

and i got these jeans, which are like the most comfortable jeans ever. and tineke got this amazing sweater and its so pretty and yep. and we got our pictures done in the photobooth and we got the same sunglasses too, hurah hurrah. sooo today we're just hanging out, it's wayy too hot to go outside.