Friday, December 22, 2006

Yesterday was so much fun. Since when do I get to hang out with Chelsea and Alannah in the middle of a Thursday afternoon? Well, since never. Long car rides = the best things ever, even though you might be dying of boredom.

I have found I detest crowded malls around Christmas time. They make me feel weird, and small. Everyone's moving around really fast and you have no space to move, or shop, or do anything. There's funny people in malls I've found.

When we were driving downtown in Toronto yesterday there was this really colourful lady. All the little girls saw her and pointed at her. She was really, really bright. She had bright pink hair and a bright blue coat, and striped socks, and really colorful pants. There was a flower sticking out of her coat pocket. Everyone thought she was weird but I liked her. I thought she was cool.

pretty little yellow flats. with a bow on them.
oh how i loved them.

escalator! escalator!

The Nutcracker is so pretty. My favourite part was when the sugar plum fairy came out and did her dance. There were these snowflakes coming out of the ceiling, and they were really sparkly. They make dancing look so easy... it's hard to believe that it could ever be hard watching them. They just dance around like they're fairies and it's like they hardly touch the ground. You'd never know that any of that KILLS. sigh.

Nothing unusual, nothing strange. Close to nothing at all. But then something unusual, something strange, comes from nothing at all. Tell me your story like you still believe. You know when you've found something 'cause you feel it when it's taken away.

Letting go of things is hard. I know everyone has said that probably a million times before. But it hit me again today when I realized it. "I walk away because I can."
oh dear.

"it's like walking on stilts at the edge of your mind"

ok this is done.
merry christmas!

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

mm caramel popcorn. it always reminds me of Christmas :D oh how i love it.

ok ok things i like to look at.
*(in any colour)
*(either of them)
*(yay its finally on sale)
everything in this store

hurray!
today is my teaching day. and last week was the last week of dance cept that tonight i have a whole bunch of make-up classes for ones my teachers had to cancel. so three hours of dance tonight, yippee! and tomorrow is the nutcracker. and we're going to go to the eaton center and check out that big christmas tree thats decorated with just chrystal.

and 5 days till christmas :D

Monday, December 18, 2006

one week till christmas!

and i still have to do... everything.
christmas comes so fast.
shopping shopping shopping.
i think i will see if i can get chels to go with me tonight, then we will do our christmas shopping.
there's no snow O_O
it better snow before christmas otherwise... christmas will not feel right.
yay, no dance this week (well, some make-up classes) and no cello lessons, no orchestra till January, so i have this week to finish all my school. that way i can have some sort of Christmas break...
i'm going to go see the National Ballet do the nutcracker this thursday :D with chels and alanna. and i'm super excited.
well i must go.
have a nice day!













lol i dunno... it just made me laugh.
ok bye!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

i love weekends.

Monday, December 11, 2006

"but the greatest of these is love"
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bittersweet weekend i must say.
having tineke over made my life.
but Chelsea's grandpa died on Friday... so if you could pray for her and her family that would be greatly, greatly appreciated.
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another week of school has started... i'm dreading it actually.
too too much to get done.
too much memorizing to do, hurtful to the braaaiinn.
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"no cause we're indestructable"
"that just put a really funny image in my head"
"yeah i know like we're holding hands and we're metal"
"yep exactly what i was thinking"
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oh oh oh.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

please take from me my life when i don't have the strength to give it to You, Jesus.
normal, normal. life as of right now is quite normal.
but i'm ok with that cause pretty soon it will be anything but the usual normal.
Tonight the stars speak of your infinite love. And it serves to remind me that what I have means nothing at all -compared to your glory. How long till your voice speaks clearly? How long till your arms envelope me? I cry - be my strength when I am weak.
-Tonight the Stars, The Glorious Unseen
*
we just sat there. but that was ok cause we both just knew what the other was thinking even though we just sat. it's comforting to know you don't always have to say things out loud with certain people who know you best, cause they just know half the time. er, more than half the time. pretty much all the time. she's so special, i can't think of life without her. she knows, she just knows.
this weekend tineke is coming over. so that makes this whole week seem bearable cause i get to see her at the end of it. i cannot wait, cause i miss her so.
oh, go listen to the glorious unseen too. especially tonight the stars. they are quite amazing.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

a snowflakes on your cheek would make this christmas so beautiful...

chapstick = my best friend
You cut me down a tree
And brought it back to me
And that's what made me see
Where I was going wrong
You put me on a shelf
And kept me for yourself
I can only blame myself
You can only blame me
And I could write a song
A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me
And I could write it down
Or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found
Or swallowed in the sea
You put me on a line
And hung me out to dry
And darling that's when I
Decided to go to see you
You cut me down to size
And opened up my eyes
Made me realizeWhat I could not see
And I could write a book
The one they'll say that shook
The world, and then it took
It took it back from me
And I could write it down
Or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found
And you'll come back to me
Not swallowed in the sea
Ooh...And I could write a song
A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me
The streets you're walking on
A thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me
Oh what good is it to live
With nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive
Not loving all you see
Oh the streets you're walking on
A thousand houses long
Well that's where I belong
And you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea
You belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea
Yeah, you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea
-Swallowed in the Sea, COldplay

Monday, December 04, 2006


there's snow.
finally.
but just a little bit of it.
and i don't think it will last for long.
it's only been raining for the past couple days.
i'd much rather have snow than ran right now.
not all the time.
but right now.

last night we put our christmas tree up.
it looks pretty sweet.
short.
sentences.
i seriously have nothing to say.
i miss my cruise friends.
SO much.
blah.
distance sucks.
and of course i miss you guys too.
everyone's so far away from everyone.

i really want to eat some shortbread cookies right now.
shortbread cookies = amazing.
cept we don't have any.
go figure.
and this is the end.
goodbye.