today = thursday

started with me waking up and getting a mesage from tineke saying "I LOVE YOU AHHHH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU AHHHHHH YESSSS I LOVE YOU AHHH"

that girl seriously lights up my life and makes my world a better place.

the shampoo i washed my hair with smelt weird.

my hair wasn't... going right, there was an odd piece of hair that was going the wrong way. ever get that somedays? yeahh

yellow yellow yellow shirts

falling over from the wind

s-n-o-w

awkward silences in the practice hall

awkward thoughts brought awkward smiles

chelsea playing her violin like an angel (she of course won, the silly girl)

it's really, really awesome playing cello in a huge church where everything rings

the booooring adjudicator who was really, really scary. i really don't think he knew what he was talking about.

rushing around trying to eat lunch and get to another place and practice all at the same time

i really love festivals i've found. when i can actually relax and not worry about it. and i won an associate Bach class so i now get to play in the silver tray, which i totally was not expecting. im kinda nervous... then of course there will be chelsea with her rosebowl :) im so excited for her eeeeee!!

seeing heather again! oh man, awesomest person ever. we had good times together today. "oh man... janelle.... im so screwed for the etude class" "uhh... no you're not i just memorized my song two days ago" "yeah but mine sucks" "ohhh heather thats just what you think" "janelleeeee save meeee"

"good luck. or actually... nevermind you don't even need luck"

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yayyee, i got three firsts today and a second :)

the newspaper reporter. haaaaaa. we were kinda like... uhh...

comparing mittens and asking questions

one more class to go

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i really miss being with the people i love the most

screw distance

screw business

i just don't care anymore about that, i just want to see these people again

i really miss maegan. i wish florida never even existed, i wish she lived here. i really miss hanging out with that girl... sweetest most selfless person you'll ever meet. this summer my love, im coming to floridaaaa and we'll go mudding! i can't wait.

TINEKE!!!

"you... me... DRUGGY!!"

"i lost my numbahhh, can i have yours?"

"uh, can you put more butter on that?" "ok, you're cute"

ha tineke. i sooo know who you love

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end

it's funny when you wager how you feel

ew
festival week
ahhhh!!
im actually excited about some of the classes
others...
freaked out of my mind
pray for me?
thanks

ahahaa
happy valentines day!

Galations 2:19-21

"For I through the law died to the law that I might live to God.
I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain.”

the rain won't last

maybe tomorrow i'll leave this day behind

and maybe then i'll sing a new song for you

and we'll mull over coffee and the movie we just saw

while you go on about your job

i'll criticize the songs they play on the radio

and the rain will fall my way when i can tell you

all about what i did that day

and the wind will have blown my way

when you are here with me

maybe tomorrow night we'll go out and paint the town red or maybe blue

that depends on you my dear

and we'll allow the pace of these days to pass us by

while you complain about l.a.

i'll tell you that i think i figured jesus out

-maybe tomorrow, molly jenson

mmm

busy

er

than ever,,,

one more week till the festival

two more weeks till Toronto, and the National Ballet.

dreaming out loud

excitement!

i wish i could see anyone whenever i wanted.

day old hate

So drown me if you can

Or we could just have conversation

And I fall... I fall... I falter

But I found you before I drift away

The things we do just to stay alive

na na na na na na

i wish i was a better writer, and i could express myself in words that seem to fit to what im feeling. but, no. it's ok though. maybe some things im feeling can't even be expressed in words. thats it! maybe it's not even me, but some things just can't be expressed in words anyways. maybe there's still hope for me.