well well.

today was the day...that i was supposed to sing in the festival but that never happened because i have a really bad cold/cough and i couldn't get the notes out of my throat.

i was kinda sad about that cause that's the second song i haven't been able to sing.

tomorrow is my busiest day... i have to accompany Jessica for violin the whole entire morning, then i have the rest of my piano classes in the afternoon, then quartet performance. should be fun!!

i'm so tired... i think this cold is making me tired.

i'm so mad cause chels has a cold now too and she couldn't do any of her classes today, which means she can't sing in the rosebowl Friday night. which sucks so bad it makes me want to cry.... this year was her year!! she was gonna win it and we were gonna go out afterwards. ugh i HATE COLDS. HATE THEM. i wish chels could sing. i want to go and hug her right now but i can't because i have to practice for tomorrow. isn't that sad? actually i want to hug so many people right now it's craaaazy.

well....i'm going now.

have a nice....day. night. life. whatever.

nothingness

well, as you can all probably guess i'm really bored. hehe whenever i blog i'm always like "i'm bored..." ah well. you guys must be bored reading my blog.
well, this weekends gonna be a lot of fun. tonight chels is coming over and we're going to watch movies...hurray! i was actually supposed to go to an extra ballet practice but i think i can get out of that. i'd rather see chels! tomorrow morning i have quartet and cello ensemble (i get to skip orchestra yesss lol) and then come home, ballet practice, then i'm off to youth group!! i'm pretty excited about that cause i haven't gone to a youth group in way too long of a time. then i'm sleeping over at tala and hannah's house...and my parents are gonna pick me up sunday afternoon i'm thinking. my little sister has a gymnastics invitational this week in Niagara falls so they'll just pick me up when they're on their way home. wow and my sister is going to provincials...i'm like amazed cause it's really hard to get into provincials. ehehe she's so talented it's craaazy i tell you.

and that will be my weekend. mm i'm listening to this band that i found through lysha...appertain display. they're really good i like them a lot...their lyrics too. "Confetti smile, smile the widest when the cameras come your wayIt’s your style, paparazzi got you in their sights todayIt’s been a while, so I doubt that you’d remember me at all it’s funny how life is" lalala!

so i forgot to post about this cause it happened last week...but yes last weekend i sang at my dad's work party/dinner thing...and he works for a company called Grand Valley Fortifiers. His boss is a Christian, and they've really been so blessed in the company they have built, but they know it's God who's blessed them so they always work on a mission project every year to help people. it's quite amazing cause they donate SO much money. this year they're doing a project in Africa where they help kids whose parents have died of AIDS...and right now they have a school going for these children and all kinds of stuff...they've also helped transport food somewhere in Africa where there was a flood and no one could get food. so yea i find it pretty amazing what they're doing...giving from what they have becuase they know it's the Lords and He's blessed them so much :D

yesterday was a hard day...really tiring. when i woke up that morning i fainted, and i have no clue why. and for the whole entire day i was so dizzy and my head just felt like led. it was horrible...and i had piano/cello/apologetics/voice all that day and i almost fainted quite a lot yesterday. it was really freaky... but i went to bed at like 9:30, took an advil, and this morning i feel a lot better. i think it was just yesterday that i was feeling weird...ah well i'm still ok so it's all good.

well i'm going to go...i hope you guys all have a good weekend! doing whatever you are doing...well i guess half of us are going to youth group, lysha's going to windsor...so yep have fun.

a year ago...

well a year ago this is what i wrote on my post...

"Jesus, please hold my heart in Your hand. Don't let me give it or any piece of it away. I want You to give it away in your time, to the right person. Please hold it tight, lock it up, and keep the key."

today...valentine's day...man it's so overrated it makes me laugh.
i feel like walking up to people and saying "i actually do not love you" and seeing what they'd say. it would be kinda amusing actually.
well this morning my mom gave me a whole little tube of mini reeces pieces. i think thats how you spell it. anyways i've eaten them all already lol i love reeces pieces. they are addicting! gwah!
well...i am bored out of my mind.
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although i shouldn't be cause i have sooo much stiinkin work to do. save me...SAVE ME!!
festival next week man i'm so nervous...i'm so not ready i feel like...quitting and not doing it. well my voice stuff is ready but not my piano stuff...so yea. stress.

i'm going to go and do something productive.
have a nice happy day
I LOVE YOU
:D

I'll be here*

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(a person...)
"cmon you know i'm always here for you. you really should go, it's half your fault that no one there hangs out with you, you need to try harder."
"yea well you know what it's not my fault ok, i have tried. you just don't understand. why would i want to go to that place anyways, you tell me."
" cause i'll be there"
"yea well whatever"
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click

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(a different person...)
"that's what friends are for. we're to bear eachother's burdens. you're in my prayers. i'm talking to him right now and i'm having trouble not being bitter towards him. man. don't let your heart break over this... God wants to hold your heart"
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click

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i've been falling flat on my face. when i don't look to God i fall. i fall so badly. and through all of this i know He wants me to learn something...and i just have to learn to listen. to listen more carefully, to really want to know what He has to say to me. surrender it all up to God, let Him take it. cause really what else can i do?
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four four four

Four Jobs I Have Had
- babysitting
- teaching piano
- um teaching voice
- cleaning house for my mom? lol

Four Movies I Could Watch Over and Over
-star wars...every single one of them
- chronicles of narnia...the lion the witch and the wardrobe!
- LOTR
- um and i don't know. there's more in case you wanted to know

Four Books I Could Read Over and Over
- the Bible! which i do read over and over lol
- anne of green gables probably
- pfft i dunno-
my mind isn't working!

Four Places I Have Lived
- um st. thomas is where i've lived my whole life
- i did live in my oma's basement before
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Four TV Shows I Watch
- um fear factor sometimes
- the news when my parents watch it
- um probably more but i don't watch too much tv
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Four Places I Have Been On Vacation
- out east IE prince edward island/nove scotia/new brunswick
- up north
- various...places
- um i can't think! wait south carolina

Four Websites I Visit Daily
-My blog
-other people's blog
-my email site...if i have emails that is!
-is msn considered a site?

Four Favorite Foods
- cookies
- this yummy yoghurt in my fridge
- french fries-
bagels with cream cheese
(ehehe oh man i am such a healthy eater...)

Four Places I Would Like To Be Right Now
- at chelsea's house
- at all my friends houses
- in france! pfft actually no
- In my bed, sleeping.

What's on your desk right now?
- it's my mom's desk actually
- well...there's a computer
- all her papers and everything you could ever imagine
- and a camera?

ok goodbye!

great is Thy faithfulness

This I recall to my mind,

Therefore I have hope.

Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed,

Because His compassions fail not.

They are new every morning;

Great is Your faithfulness.

-Lamentations 3:21-23

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He's Always Been Faithful

Morning by morning I wake up to find

the power and comfort of God's hand in mine.

Season by season I watch him amazed,

in awe of the mystery of his perfect ways.

All I have need of his hand will provide.

He's always been faithful to me.

I can't remember a trial or a pain

He did not recycle to bring me gain.

I can't remember one single regret

in serving God only and trusting his hand.

This is my anthem, this is my song,

the theme of the stories I've heard for so long.

God has been faithful, he will be again.

His loving compassion, it knows no end...

-Sara Groves

no title

"...but life is going to work out. Take hope in God okay darling? Because He’s going to make everything turn out alright. And try to view things in perspective… there’s girls out there today becoming prostitutes, that have lost both their parents, that won’t know whether they’re going to survive today. Every time something bad happens in my life and the worry and stress build up, I just think of how much more serious it could have been. I think of how much different my life could have been if I didn’t have an eye, or an arm, or even some of my brain and how all those people that have that are just as much human as me and that God loves them as much as me. It’s in those times that life seems horribly unfair and leaning towards me. My friends seem to keep on going through things that I just can’t relate to but I wanted to tell you that God loves you and He’s going to pull you through this. And all the feelings you might be feeling right now might be really strong but they’re just feelings. Keep your mind in the right place and even though you might not be able to feel God right now, He’s there watching over you and he’s got this great plan for you. And I know it’s so hard to trust, and I struggle with it. I think right now, might be one of those times that you can trust God the most, so try after this is done and you don’t feel pain for it anymore, draw close to God. Draw close to Him when you hurt and draw close to Him when you’re feeling fine. That way you don’t limit his power and trusting will come more easily."

thanks to the person who wrote this to me. it helped me a whole ton, everything else you said did too. and man i miss u so much and i love you like crazy <3